NZ Retreat Day 2posted by SallyGadsden , Yearly AccessWednesday, February 10th 2010 @ 2:52 PM (3 ratings)
DAY 2 SESSION 1 Well, I awake feeling much better. I had a little sleep in and Patrick came by around 9. We start talking about spirit deaths as was happening last night- and then Patrick realises he had a client booked in from Madrid, a Skye session. Patrick thinks it would be a good opportunity to observe a session and asked if I would be a surrogate body for the client, so that he could use my body as hers. That was fine. After some fiddling we manage to get the client on-line and do the session on Skye. Well, it was a Skye lesson as well as an ALL LOVE one! I was her mirror and could feel everything, emotions, fears, anxieties, anger- interesting to watch and listen to how willing she was to go into her feelings, she did work hard and got to some deep issues. During the session my body was reacting and clearing and integrating too, the connection to the energy, the flow of love.
DAY 2 SESSION 2
I sleep for a while, then Patrick comes over for some pressure point work. This is to address the pressure in my head and problems with the blockages I was having last night.
The intense physical pain is excruciating and eventually I find that breathing into it and opening my heart to it, adding the infinity symbol, starts to address the blocks- At one point he says “this side is less tight than the other”- and I was already at knifes edge, so that prompts me to bring in another method of dealing with it- I imagine the love of my heart connected to the pressure point as a cool, clear stream that rumbles and bubbles over the intensity of the pain, the more I open, the less resistance there is- it needed direction too, and Patricks pressure was enough to focus it.- and the other side melts away more easily with the passage between it and my heart opened up, and the cool, healing waters flowing over the pain.
There is some resistance in the hips, and eventually I manage to get some flow into the legs- not full, but a connection anyway.
When all had calmed down and I am floating in the sea of my heart Patrick leaves, and I continue floating for another 40mins!
When I get up I realise that where the pressure points were pushed ache, and I feel tired, but decide to swim anyway and be gentle on myself. So swim, write my journal, feel hungry, have some eggs and then decide I need to do some work with myself to ‘feel’ me in the Root Chakra, so I place my hands on my root and go into visualization-
I see a rattle being put up inside me, then a snake up inside me with its mouth ready to bite- this is not scary for I know that even if it was poisonous it was all in spirit and there was meaning to it- it was more about union and initiation.
I have been single for a few years now and recently have observed deep connection within myself. I see my male side making love to my female side- all within my womb- no guests invited!! They dance together, they sing, there is union, neither one feels isolated, left out, alone. I am my own best friend and lover in the very sense of the word, and I am becoming more in touch with both sides as I grow and expand in understanding.
I feel part of the blocking in the hips is sexual and I might need Natalie and her Tantra to help me connect and get the flow going.
DAY 2 SESSION 3
Now the Infinity Dance…. My homework before Patrick arrives! I am flowing through all of me with the infinity movement, the gentle flow of the hips, the knees, the arms, the head, the all of me is swaying in the ALL LOVE and I am taken into myself into my ALL LOVE. Patrick arrives just near the end of my dance, and sits and waits for me to come out of the beautiful state I am in.
We talk about Meditation, the different types and different ways that people practice them. Tonight we are going to do a Vipashyana Method, which is sitting still and scanning the body as an observer, not diagnosing – not easy in practice! It is 40 minutes of sitting very still, in silence.
There is much visualization of scanning, sometimes my body looks like sticks/layers all piled on top of each other- sometimes I just see the back or the sides, sometimes I feel pain but notice it and move on, sometimes a part of my body seems bigger, or I am looking at one side or another, different perspectives of me from various viewpoints around my body, from above, below, beside, from my tummy button up, from all which ways! So many ways of looking and observing.
When I go back to my heart- I feel peace and calm- but not ‘emotional love’ personal love- I was expecting overwhelming love and depths but I am not seeing or experiencing it. Must talk to Patrick re that. Maybe it is just me shifting to a place of observation rather than being immersed in me, emotional me.
‘All is love, the flow of life is love, the very vibration we step in is love, it is all pervading, all encompassing, it does not hide purely in the heart, yet that is where the soul resides, but the love- All Love – is your very vibration, as you gently tread this earth. It is the softness with which you view the world, love comes through your eyes and you see the world through love..
To live in love is to live with absolute integrity, honouring the love within and the love without.
It is giving and receiving, it is laughing and crying,
It is the bliss of acceptance and unity with oneness.
Love all, love everything,
Love to thyself, All Encompassing